memories

not as tired

2009-12-04T23:09:00.002+08:00

surprisingly i am not as tired or rather as exhausted as compared to the past few days.

perhaps its because i slept early last night and woke up as usual.

new child in my class was adapting faster than expected. though the crying goes on..
monday will be a restart of everything. provided i will still be attach to the same class.

worked an hour extra today. was not in plan though.

went to JP to make a new pair of specs. harris to browse through storybooks. bata to look for shoes. g2000 to look for clothes and lastly, john little to look for singlets.

ended up bought 3 more singlets.

new specs is to be collected on monday. look forward to it!

in addition, finally had the time to see a doctor. surprisingly, there was no patient when i entered the clinic. so i was the first. lucky!

hopefully my cough will recover soon. really hate the attack of a sudden itchness in my throat!

will be going out with khai tmr. wants to watch movie but she doesn't want...

recaps and reflecting

2009-11-29T16:13:00.003+08:00

after reading a few friends/colleagues blogs, am suddenly thinking of the past few days, or rather, this past week's happenings.

didn't plan on mentioning it in blog. but somehow, what they wrote triggered it off me.

what A said before is finally beginning to show.

being well-protected by family, now is something that they can't protect me from, anymore.

after becoming a young adult, many things had happened.

feedbacks , advices and opinions from friends and colleagues.

some are good and some are bad.

some of the bad ones are the ones that are hurtful.

need to learn how to handle the hurtful ones..seriously.

memorable experiences

2009-11-27T15:32:00.003+08:00

these past days were busy with k2 concert. rehearsals and the exact day (yesterday).

finally it is all over.

the painful yet memorable experiences.

painful because of the big blisters that are partly caused by the covered shoes that i wore, behind both legs, and muscle aches that were caused by running and carrying the props.

memorable because of the new colleagues that i have met and came across through helping out. and not to forget, a sort-of-gathering with my coursemates and classmates during poly years.

too bad we didn't take photos as a memory..

28th Nov, will be my audition day. for year-end dinner and dance. am pairing up with jaslyn.guess it will be another memorable experience..

wish me luck!

photos taken using handphone

2009-11-27T15:25:00.004+08:00

full moon that caught my breathe away.

colleagues that i knew through helping out in k2 concert.
will miss these two especially.

yankumi!

2009-11-22T00:15:00.002+08:00

went to watch the movie 'Gokusen' today @ PS.

plot was expected though this time round there was a mini small twist in the end.

like the character that kame acted. though as yeewee mentioned, his characters are always the same kind.

still..he returned. and frankly, watching him acting, stirred a feeling. my likings in kat-tun one or two years ago.

recently, jin's performance in music station. yet to watch but plans to.

starting of weekend!

2009-11-20T22:29:00.002+08:00

can't say if this week passed fast or slow. frankly, sometimes i find it fast and sometimes slow.

anyway, next week will be another busy week though it is a public holiday on friday.

whatever it is, hope to stay with my toddlers.

dinner with happy tree(3) friends

2009-11-17T18:58:00.007+08:00

fruitful

2009-11-15T22:03:00.002+08:00

it has been a fruitful week. is there such word - fruitful?

enjoyed the time spent with my toddlers. time flies whenever i'm ask to be in-charge of them.

bought a new laptop. small one. main aim is to carry it around whenever i need or feel like it.

met up with hannah and constance after so long. it was fun and catching-up time.

went to orchard centre mall. a mall that i have yet to been to so far. love the sceneries.

took pictures. however, laptop can't seem to read the card reader or anything that can be plugged in at the moment. perhaps only after restarting then it will be possible.

pics will be up soon ^^

1st update

2009-11-04T22:58:00.004+08:00

please don't be mistaken.

am not sad or anything. just that i was bottling up things for a while. so took the chance to voice it out somewhere.

anyway, found out the class that i will be taking over next year. not sure if its consider a good news or bad news.

am looking forward to work with a partner. or rather, someone that i have yet to work with before. hope nothing goes negative..

miss updating over here.

disappointment & hurt

2009-10-30T22:04:00.002+08:00

am really tired today.

have no idea what is the reason either.

what is the point of updating here when i don't even know anything about you.

been waiting and waiting. all i get is disappointment.

shall learn to keep things to myself from now on.

that means won't be updating here as much.

forgive me.

don't ask me anything about this post.

it is up for anyone to guess and for you to find out yourself.

new look?

2009-10-29T22:29:00.002+08:00

after talking to jas about what happened yesterday. we seemed to share the same view..though i didn't mention it to her.

somehow workplace is complicated.

have no idea how to put it in words. just a feeling.

and the worst thing is, it is getting much more as the days goes by.

please do not let me be influence because of it. feeling the influencing thingy every since today. right after i came back from the community.

shall control myself and think before speaking from now on.

a shield is needed somehow.

cut my hair today!

luck is not on me

2009-10-28T20:57:00.002+08:00

and so..it became the topic of the day.

am surprised when i heard it. after all, this is the first time such thing happened to me.

hate all the attentions i am facing right now. people who knew me well will know that i don't like such attention. do i even have any?

hope it will just go away. soon.

now to add on, i am sick once again. running nose. flu.

do i really need vitamin c that badly?

am thinking of taking the flu jab once the flu has passed.

will not be going to usual workplace tmr. instead, to a community centre. labor.

problems surfacing

2009-10-27T23:23:00.002+08:00

work is no longer that hectic as the past few weeks.

however, the more i learnt whether if its about the children or teaching-wise, the more things (can be good and bad)that are reality, surfaced. and i believe, as time passes, more will add on.

take for example: management-wise, relationship-wise and teaching-wise.

somehow, colleagues that are close to me are facing lots of tension and pressure nowadays. i have no idea how to help.

all i can do is to lend a listening ear ever now and then.

will i face the same problem once i start to have my own class?

will i be able to cope? studying and working at the same time?

misses my toddler class children very much.

short holiday trip

2009-10-25T23:01:00.003+08:00

took some time uploading those pictures.

anyway, realised that i didn't get to take photos with jaslyn's grandparents.

hopefully i will see them again. they are really nice people. especially her grandmother ^^.

this visit made me miss my very own grandparents.

this trip was a nice and relaxing experience.

was amazed by their plantation. including land too!

plants belong and planted at jaslyn's grandparents house

2009-10-25T21:25:00.012+08:00

updates!

2009-10-22T06:53:00.002+08:00

its been a while.

there are many things that i wonder and am confuse with.

do not ask me what. cause i myself don't even know how to put it in words. rest assure that i will surely ask if i manage to form a sentence in my head.

again with the frank-ness. is it that bad?

will not be working tmr!

looking forward to the short holiday!

2009-10-19T22:44:00.002+08:00

晴天雨天(Moving On) - Zhang Li Yin starring Donghae (super junior)

credit: sment @ youtube

current into

2009-10-18T22:06:00.003+08:00

books: Fatal Seductions One & Two by Douglas Lee.

drama:

korean - You are beautiful (Jang Geun Suk,Park Shin Hye,Lee Hong Ki, Jung Yong Hwa)

idol group:

A.N.Jell(Jang Geun Suk,Park Shin Hye,Lee Hong Ki, Jung Yong Hwa)

movies with jaslyn

2009-10-18T15:13:00.000+08:00

Surrogates

The deadly tsunami

been a while

2009-10-18T14:58:00.002+08:00

since my last update.

not that busy. just feeling tired to be online and update over here. basically, tired to use laptop.

anyway, nothing unusual happened this week. just that there was really a surprised moment on friday late morning.

met up with khai on friday right after work. went to orchard.

went to her school first before heading for dinner @ long john. next stop was hmv then kino. did a little clothes and shoes shopping as if was already 9pm. shops were beginning to close up.

went to do facial yesterday. it was my 8th session. 2 more to go.

had diarrhoea and fever last night. food poisoning? not sure either. can't think of anything that i ate can lead me to have such symtoms.

today shall be total rest day for me.

busily preparing

2009-10-12T19:30:00.003+08:00

took half-day leave tmr. for studies purposes. interview.

today's workplace happenings went quite smoothly....P can finally relax. for a while.

changed working shift today with a colleague of mine. am currently preparing for the interview tmr. hopes i won't forget and get too nervous.

since i am working half day tmr..will start work @ 8am.

shall spend the waiting hours to take a light nap.

another busy weekend

2009-10-11T22:34:00.002+08:00

yup yup..as title stated.

went back to workplace for both days.

no jap class for next sat because its public holiday. hopefully i'll be free.

important day tmr regarding work. important day on tue regarding studies.

eldest sis treated dinner today. for almost the whole family except 3rd sis. she and her character.

been on cold war with 3rd sis ever since the collapsed of our clothes stand. didn't know at first..until saw her on friday night right after work. saw her at Jurong point and she treated me as if she doesn't know me even though we saw each other. on saturday, saw her again with her boyfriend, near my workplace. again, she treated as if she didn't know me. even called out her name.

how selfish of her. today, finally have the time to sleep in. she woke me up with a measuring tape. or rather, the usage of measuring tape while measuring the size and height of the collapsed stand which is right near the head of the bed where my head is. doesn't she know that i am a light sleeper? even switching on the lights can wake me up.

how childish can she be?

2009-10-11T00:10:00.002+08:00

not going to K-suit anymore.

instead, eldest sis will be treating the whole family. @ crystal jade.

hope to have a good rest tmr...but am i able to stop thinking about work? is it that easy?

been a week since i last update my cash book. doing it right now.

didn't go for team's match today. found out that they won!! am happy for them.

going to sleep soon.

thoughts

2009-10-08T23:19:00.002+08:00

no doubt am learning a lot each day.

i wonder how would i be or act when i have my own class. seriously.

if luck is with me, with the addition of continuing studies. will i be able to cope and balance?

for the first time since i started work, am working the earliest shift for tmr.

wish me luck!

quick update

2009-10-07T07:30:00.003+08:00

suddenly realised that i am always busy recently during working hours instead of the after hours. running and helping out here and there.

not that i am not happy about it..who will not?

just hope that i can last till i have my own class. in the mean while, help out as much as i can. and not to forget, be well-recognize and respected by the others at the same time.

friend and colleagues are all facing a lot of pressures recently. especially the younger ones..

am glad that i have some time being and learning from each different level class.

what a day

2009-10-05T23:15:00.002+08:00

just as i thought i can rest once i reaches home, something cropped up.

the shelf which is used by 3rd sis and i in our room collapsed. mum tried to put the shelf back to its original shape by tapping the joints together. indeed, it managed to hold itself up after the tappings. but...it doesn't end here.

because it is late already, we can't possibly buy a new shelf right away, so 3rd sis tried to keep as much as possible (since most of the clothes that is hanging on the shelf is hers) and asked me to keep some of mine too. the thing is...she has been moving the clothes into the cupboard that both of us shares..and didn't leave me any space at all..so how am i going to keep some of mine? i told her in a calm voice, tried to tell her there is no use at all..and she started raising her voice and even started arguing with me.

so weird...amazingly, throughout the whole arguing session, i had on a calm tone and mood. while she...keeps on raising her voice at me. i even ask her that myself..and she answered me with many excuses..

i wonder did being a teacher in a childcare builds up my patience? so much so that i can keep myself calm throughout the whole arguing session. this is definitely the first time.

anyway..decided to watch a few videos before heading to bed.

last but not least, message to jaslyn: thanks for giving me a belated present!

busy weekend

2009-10-04T21:18:00.002+08:00

weekend is ending.

friday's work training was fun and a learning journey for me. ben & jerry! went to iluma with jaslyn for dinner at Chang (Korean restuarant).

found a new place while taking a walk round the mall, the place is call 'K Suites'. Their concept is Boutique-Styled. for Karaoke. Its another quality concept created by K Box Entertainment Group. really love the place! there is a computer with internet assess in the room we were in. in addition, there are even blankets and slippers available in the rooms!Will be bringing 1st sis there for her birthday next sunday.

will definitely be helping to advertise. to colleagues and close friends ^^

been busy for this weekend.

saturday - health board seminar and jap class.

went to watch the movie 'Surrogates' right after the seminar on sat. okay movie for me. napped for a while before going for jap class. homework homework!!

sunday - match. we won! score was 6 vs 0!

came back home to sleep right after. won't be going for next week's match. its on sat. have jap class.

days spent by

2009-10-01T22:45:00.002+08:00

busy with work.

finding myself really have been 'floating' here and there recently.

being a floater makes me feels really confused sometimes.

am really tired today. to the stage of exhaustion.

its Childrens' Day today! am the organizer for the whole party. luckly had the help of my colleagues ^^

how i wish i can just sleep off for the whole day tmr.

work training tmr.

hating the other me

2009-09-28T22:09:00.002+08:00

something is bothering me.

it is back. again.

i always feel that way right after...

am currently hating the other me.

after all these while, i still find myself - can't let go.

relaxing sunday

2009-09-27T22:16:00.002+08:00

thanks to jaslyn, i had a relaxing sunday.

had no plans for sunday actually. even thought of resting at home for the whole day.

but, one phone call from jaslyn on saturday night, immediately made my sunday a relaxing day for me.

don't get the wrong idea, jas. it is always nice to catch a movie with u. today is no exception.

went to catch 'Fame' at Jurong Point.

jas is disappointed with the movie. for me, guess it is a okay movie.

suddenly realised i missed a lot of movies that i wanted to watch earlier.

went to eat at Tori-Q for dinner.

made name stickers too!shall start pasting my name on all my stationery.

photos taken for 21st birthday with hannah and constance

2009-09-27T00:21:00.009+08:00

1st picture taken of the day. at marina barrage.

with constance.

with hannah.

our food for picnic!

hannah's uno cards. constance's plums.

me counting the grapes while trying to stuff all into my mouth. lost a game. sang a birthday song to myself with my mouth full of grapes.

taken before leaving the barrage.

taken while hannah was trying to push me into the fountain.

constance and i trying to take a jump-shot.

trying to be 'hangeng'.

taken in the shuttle bus.

trying to be 'hangeng'.

food at 'Chang' restaurant at iluma.

taken with the help of a waitress.

self-cam.

us all try to be 'Hannahs'.

special thanks to the 2 girls for creating such a wonderful experience for me on my 21st. am glad that i have the two of u as my close friends in my poly years. appreciate all the planning and preparation for this wonderful outing!

belated birthday celebration

2009-09-26T18:09:00.002+08:00

went to marina barrage on friday.

really had a fun time.

other than exploring the marina barrage gallery..

it was my first time having a picnic up a hill, thanks to the two girls ^^

too bad i didn't have my camera with me. but constance did took with her camera!

photos will be up once she uploads it! and if blogspot allows..hoho!

had a match in the morning. we won!

just finished my jap homework. class later. needs to take a nap now.

a day off

2009-09-24T22:46:00.002+08:00

took a day leave for tmr.

to celebrate my belated birthday with hannah and constance.

picnic and dinner!

bringing them to the korean restaurant @ iluma!

hope they will like it. i want to try the bbq myself! must bring more $$.

knocked off work early today. but stayed for an hour after to do some stuff.

finally cleared my application for uni. now all i have to do is to wait for the news.

met april on my way to the post office. immediately booked an appointment to do facial right away.

am glad for it. after all, its been 2 weeks. or more?

long weekend ending

2009-09-21T23:30:00.004+08:00

and so, another long weekend is about to end.

haven been doing much today.

slept till 1pm.

used laptop for a while before getting my own printer out from my pile of things.

did application online. only thing left is to photocopy the necessary documents and send them all out. not to forget, get an envelop and stamp for it.

tidy up my desk and pile before putting back the printer to its original place. now its neater ^^.

spent the whole afternoon till evening doing all that.

not finding it wasteful, but consider it as keeping myself busy? its better than watching videos for the whole day right?

will be working early shift tmr.

friday took leave. meeting hannah and constance ^^

celebration - my 21st birthday & work @ sukura clementi

2009-09-21T22:54:00.010+08:00

tables were divded into 2. one of the table with my wonderful collegues.

the other table. wonderful collegues ^^

my birthday cake and ice-cream!

making a wish.

cutting the cake.

opening present. a key with wings necklace.

P wearing it for me.

taking a photo together right after wearing.

with P, jaslyn and cheryl.

with jaslyn and cheryl (The 3 musketeers).

3 musketeers & marina.

3 musketeers & dearest rosie.

3 musketeers, lao shi and marina.

with lao shi.

with dearest rosie.

3 musketeers ^.^

group photo - taken before leaving.

busy day

2009-09-20T23:21:00.004+08:00

even though today is a sunday, was busy for the whole day.

after waking up, took my time to prepare going back to workplace.

helped out jaslyn and cheryl with their work. after which, jaslyn and i went to bugis.

plans were: to watch movie, get something for all my colleagues, get boxes, look for bags and dinner.

in the end, we did: watch movie, got something for all my colleagues and dinner.

The movie that we watched - 'The ugly truth', by katherine heigl & gerard butler.

not a bad movie, was a okay movie for me i guess. its a romance and a little comedy movie.

bought 3 books from kino. 1 about vampire, 1 on werewolf and 1 on summer vacation.

for dinner, we went back to the korean restaurant at iluma. as usual, the food are really nice. had rice and marinated chicken this time round. oh! not to forget, tried out rice cakes with chili! personally, am okay with the rice cake. not really like or hate. nice experience in trying ^^

busy busy

2009-09-19T22:59:00.003+08:00

been really busy these past weeks.

including next week. a VIP is coming to my workplace. nervous? not yet.

haven been chatting with god-brother for sometime, wonder how he is. hope everything is fine and going smoothly.

jap class lessons are getting tougher. even have homework! today's class was on learning the way of writing the character.

had a fun and great time celebrating with colleagues on friday! they tried to give me a surprise..but..hahahha..

really like the necklace that jaslyn and my mentor chose for me. am going to wear it everyday ^^

stomach upset; frustration

2009-09-16T20:52:00.002+08:00

still feeling unwell.

somehow, after a night rest, the next day, morning till early evening (working time), am always feeling okay. it is always right before ending work, that i am feeling unwell again, for these past few days.

what is wrong?

i spent my 21st birthday sleeping off. a painful and boring birthday. on such a important day.

why is it only happening on my 21st? can someone please give me an answer?

getting sick soon

2009-09-14T22:06:00.000+08:00

guess it is as what the title says.

been feeling not so well since yesterday.

first the heavy-ness in head, then the throat. was better after a night sleep. but now, the symptoms came back.

guess will be sleeping early today too.

yesterday's match went well, though i wasn't on my best performance. everything i did in court were so tiring even though i did nothing much. less savings and less moving around.

would it be because of the sat work event?

speaking of the event, it went well too..though, we were all red and burnt under the hot sun for so long!

died tired

2009-09-12T22:22:00.000+08:00

hahahha!!

okay, sorry for the randomness, am watching Scary Movie 4 right now.

anyway, been helping P with the important event that happened today for this week. finally its all over. well, at least the labour part. now is more on paperwork and documenation.

for helping out in the event, i have definitely learnt a lot. a lot of things are still new to me though.

went to town to have lunch right after sending back all the stuff for the events to the centre.

did a little shopping with jaslyn and P.

took an hour nap before heading for jap class. don't really want to wake up though. but it's my first lesson, so don't want to miss.

learnt some of the basic things in class today.

updates

2009-09-10T23:12:00.000+08:00

important event for work is coming nearer. this sat.

when thinking, am a little nervous for it. how and what will happen on the day itself?

been busy this week. helping out principal and colleagues.

am glad of such busy-ness. to keep my mind off things.

been wanting to watch a movie.

haven been replying or acknowledging his sms for yesterday. worst, he didn't even sms me today as he promised.

for him whom i have hurt with the truth that i have told, i am still feeling sorry and guilty about it. but truth is still the truth. hope time can build up the trust and relationship again.

dump him

2009-09-08T21:48:00.000+08:00

and so, blogspot is being weird again.

i wonder when will it get back to normal again.

anyway, today during work was a busy day for me.

it is nice being busy and feeling tired right after. at least something to keep the mind off from thinking about something.

don't be mistaken. thinking of nothing bad.

at least, i have made a final decision. if he can't tell me the reasons why he want us to be together again, then i will leave him.

is that even consider making an effort?

fortunate

2009-09-07T23:19:00.000+08:00

am feeling so at the moment.

it is actually my 1st time feeling this way. right after chatting with friends. whether or not on the net or real life meeting.

i really like this feeling. perhaps the last friendship is really a mistake that i have made by myself.

i'm just glad it is finally over.

jiayou!gege!

memories - photos updates

2009-09-07T22:11:00.000+08:00

my gosh. what is happening to blogspot recently?

suddenly or rather finally, the buttons are appearing.

once in a month or two meet-up with khai

catching up with classmates

with the birthday girl

Happy 3 friends

with Roise @ workplace

with Jaslyn and Cheryl @ teachers' day dinner

with P(Serene) @ teachers' day dinner

September babies @ workplace

all of the above are the happenings that had happened from the beginning of September till now.

yesterday's (sat) happenings

2009-09-06T15:36:00.000+08:00

morning's match against RP score was 4 vs 3. we won! unbelieveable!

rushed down to SIM for the degree course briefing. have decided to take it.

next stop was to do facial! it wasn't as comfortable as the last time. sort of like a counselling session this time. hahaha!

walked back home and changed before rushing out to meet cons. in the end, took a taxi. and was the first to reach at yvonne's birthday party.

it was fun seeing my classmates again. and not to forget, hannah and constance. hannah is still hannah but constance, changed a little. hahaha..so korean now.

will upload photos here once blogspot allows. can't find the button somehow.

fast update

2009-09-04T23:42:00.000+08:00

getting late. should by right, in bed by this time.

tmr will be a busy day for me. have plans for the whole day.

match, talk/briefing and birthday party.

Teachers' day dinner

2009-09-01T00:36:00.006+08:00

my 1st ever celebration. for myself and colleagues.

took lots of pictures. hopefully i can upload them here.

facebook is being a nuisance. haven been doing much things over there since it always either hang or error on page whenever i tried to log in.

dinner was okay. new and fun. interesting?

being with colleagues during such events is nice ^.^

weekend is ending

2009-08-30T15:23:00.001+08:00

hahaha..guess this will be my every sunday's title?

anyway, yesterday's event dry-run was fun. we had a few games rehearse.

ate at tori-q and facial came next.

it was so comfortable doing facial. fall asleep right away in the room.

went to watch Final Destination next! prefer the 1st one though.

went back home right after and continued with my Chinese Paladin III! i'm crazy over this drama recently.

had to wake up early today since match was at 10am. have to be at tampiness sports hall by 8.30am. was a little late but i wasn't the last :P

and...we won! though one shot earned by the opponent was my fault, teammates were nice about it and didn't mention anything. score was 10 vs 4.

one thing about joining back the team was to make more solid friends. but somehow, i felt left-out again. perhaps it is too early to say now.

went back home right after. time was wasted with no extra plans.

had korean takeaway for lunch! really love the chicken and kimchi inside.

graving to eat at the korean restaurant at bugis.

going to take a short nap.

experience

2009-08-28T20:56:00.000+08:00

got to experience taking a class by myself today.

didn't end badly. not a bad experience.

my apologies to dearest jaslyn for not completing her given task to me.

happy

2009-08-25T19:29:00.000+08:00

am happy today.

finally something that cheers me up.

it is principal's birthday today. she is in a good mood. somehow her mood is affecting me as well.

took pictures with her and a lot of her own solo pictures.

in addition, she told me something that really makes my day. my long stay.

some important event is coming up for work. really hope everything will go on smoothly.

will be working this coming sat. for an hour or so.

after that, facial ^.^

no news from that boyfriend.

believe or not to

2009-08-24T22:01:00.001+08:00

i never would have expect this to happen. so soon.

to believe or not to believe.

after all, it is between real life and on the net.

news had even reported to be beware of online relationship or friendship. meeting-up.

i do trust him. my only god-brother. my online god-brother.

but it is all to a certain limit.frankly, i do.

but when it comes to comparing between real life people and on the net relationship, people will normally choose trust between real life people isn't it? no matter how close the friendship or relationship it is.

i do admit i was shocked when he chose me over his real life ex-girlfriend and real life best friends. but can i really believe it?

wholeheartly. i really wanted to.

i am lost.

why did it all ended this way?

1st day in new class

2009-08-24T20:39:00.000+08:00

and so, it didn't turn out as bad as expected.

guess i expected worst huh?

as expected, the older children are different from the younger ones. much more different. in terms of throwing tantrums.

anyway, i'm glad the day went by without any problem or real challenge.

hope to get to know the children more.

i miss my toddlers already!

regretting

2009-08-23T23:09:00.000+08:00

friday's cooking session with the parents went smoothly.

lucky for me ^^

saturday, went to changi japanese school for japan summer festival with jaslyn and jiarui. was excited for it, but when i reached there, the excitement simply died.

the performance and the stalls for selling food, drinks, accessories, japan imported goods and games.

none made me excited,though i like one of the games. the 'yo-yo' game, where one have to use a holder (made of tissue paper and clip) to hook the rubber band which holds the water balloon. managed to get one during my 1st try.

am going to show the water balloon to my toddlers tmr.

went home after using up all the tickets we had.

guess this event isn't suitable for me after all.

sleep in for today. till 12.30pm.

made a last minute decision to go to the book sale at expo with 2nd sis.

regretted the decision too. in the end, bought books about early childhood area.

saw a secondary classmate of mine. he is one of the stall holder. but i did not call out to him. he was busy. nice seeing him again though since he did not come for our last class gathering.

update

2009-08-19T23:02:00.000+08:00

guess the date didn't end well. or rather, the feeling didn't end well.

nothing bad happen. but nothing good happen either.

he told me i have changed. but he couldn't put into words where and how i have changed.

the feeling is just so weird just now.

all we did is just to watch a movie together. no dinner. nothing else.

he asked a question that i supposed decreased the feeling that i had for him. salary? what is it going to do with our relationship?

in the end, went home to cook myself ramen.

no sms from him, which he used to send after sending me home.

back to square one huh?

expected to much and this is what i felt after.

guess i am disappointed after all.

tuesday

2009-08-19T07:16:00.000+08:00

went to see a doctor in the late morning.

doctor was kinda fierce.

muffin making in the evening.

failed. became biscuits instead.

will be out with him for our first date later in the evening.

another weekend ending

2009-08-16T23:02:00.000+08:00

and so another weekend is about to gone just like that.

i have yet to fully make use of my weekend.

how i wish i can control time. like that i can pass and went back time easily.

first time, chatting with god-brother isn't helping. but he did tried his best. as i mentioned to him, i trust his judgement.

seriously hope he won't regret making his decision. it is too late for me to make him change his decision anyway.

i was hurt. hurt by her. but why and what is it got to do with their relationship. this, i don't understand.

my conclusion is: life is hard. life isn't fair.

saturday

2009-08-16T13:25:00.000+08:00

went out with jaslyn to watch the movie 'UP'. at bugis. the new mall.

it was not bad, but jaslyn's expression and 'exaggeration' when watching were really funny.

right before the movie, we went to a korean restaurant for lunch. the food there is good!i ordered kimchi ramen as recomanded by the lady boss while jaslyn ordered spicy chicken and a bowl of rice.

both are really nice! no doubt, we will visit there again.

were out of the mall soon after the movie ended. reason? it is too cold for the two of us even with my hoodie.

went to walk around the old mall for a while. had donuts and a cup of chocolate before leaving.

amazingly, it wasn't that late when i reached home. but mum was already sleeping.

not able to sleep

2009-08-13T21:54:00.000+08:00

was not able to sleep last night.

somehow i dozed off while thinking about things i guess.

something happened during work that made me feels bad.

i just hope it won't happen again tmr.

been chatting with another friend. a friend that i knew because of 'her'.

one year older than me. but she too, seemed to live in a complicated life.

she too, talk about the world not being pretty and nice as we thought it was when we were young.

i was really shocked and surprised when i heard her saying about it. i mean, when you were young, you already think about the world being pretty and nice?

i don't know about all of you, but for me, i didn't even think about the world. i just lived my life as i was back then.

right now? i knew it isn't simple as just a world. but hey, i'm learning okay?

will it be too late for me?

i'll have to wait and see in the future.

memories with him

2009-08-12T23:04:00.000+08:00

its been some time since i saw him on msn.

its been some time since the two of us contact each other.

its been some time since the two of us met.

right now i'm chatting with him. brought back the memories of the time i spent with him. how many years? year 1 in poly till year 3. 3 years being with him.

regret? don't think so. after all, we don't meet often. once or twice every two months? was that even a relationship?

all i can say is, truthfully, i didn't work as hard as i did from my last friendship. not even close.

there are a lot of things i don't know about him. he is just a 'friend' after all.

feel like dying

2009-08-11T23:18:00.000+08:00

as both my msn and title mentioned.

i hate the symptoms! why isn't my cough and running nose ending when my medicine is finishing?

how? what to do? see doctor again?

i have been keeping myself away from fried food and cold drinks. truthfully.

how long more do i have to do that?

mum's been nagging me to take my medicine. dad has been offering sore throat sweets (no sugar). dad's method is somehow working for me now. after taking a sweet. i hope it will work from now on (although i knew it won't last after a while).

surprisingly, 3rd sis is asking me to pass the virus to her. but the thing is, she is sleeping in the same room as me, if the virus wants to go her side, it should have been long ago right?

the only thing i want now is good health. please let it come.

'sickness, sickness go away!'

back to work

2009-08-10T23:43:00.000+08:00

though today is supposed to be a public holiday. went back to the centre to do some work.

i don't mind the extra working hours with no pay, as long as there is someone to accompany.

thanks to dearest Jaslyn, my day went by quite fast. not bored and full used.

hope to watch some videos before heading to bed. yet to watch.

been telling my closer friends what i am intending and hopping to do for my 21st birthday. not sure if it will be that way.

late shift this week.

wish to watch movie soon.

kbox?

catching up with classmates

2009-08-09T00:39:00.005+08:00

still the same

2009-08-08T14:02:00.000+08:00

finally got to see a doctor yesterday. successed on my 3rd try.

it was fast. less than 5 mins and i was out of the room.

surprising the cough medicine doesn't taste as bad as i have imagined. in fact, the after taste is really nice.

went to order my contact lens. will be coming in next week.

went for another round of books shoping at POPULAR. this time round, all the books that i have bought are in chinese. romance.

3rd sis has yet to come back from malaysia. starting to miss her, though it was nice having a room to myself for two days.

cough is still as bad. how am i going to do my facial later?

will be having dinner with a few of my classmates in town right after. catching-up.

wants a break

2009-08-06T23:28:00.000+08:00

something happened during work. made me kind of mad with one of my colleagues.

have yet to see a doctor.

saw a few of my secondary school classmates.

finally bought the 1st book of the vampire series that i'm currently reading ^^

wants to take a break and go for entertainment. movies. singing.

looking forward to tmr's celebration!

day went for me

2009-08-06T00:23:00.002+08:00

planned to see a doctor. ended up didn't.

should be going tmr instead. right after work.

went out for dinner right after work. shopped a little. didn't get anything in the end though.

surprisingly, 2nd and 3rd sisters are doing me a favor right now. or rather, my 2nd sis. for work.
am happy.

another thing, am happy at work today too. although i wasn't at the beginning, but after hearing what my principal said, i am. still am. am glad that she knew/realised it too.

will be a busy day tmr.

shall sleep once my 2nd sis is done.

it is coming back

2009-08-04T21:36:00.001+08:00

feeling miserable right now.

sickness. personal issue. life.

not to worry. i am not going to end my life. just basically about life.

i am happy with who i am now. it is difficult to change. difficult to experience things that i have yet to experience for my age.

simply because i am protected. well-protected by people surrounding me.

i am disturbed about why are there so many steps in a friendship. people can find me immature. but this is how and what i am thinking now. like it or not. just keep to yourself. i have enough of people telling me how experience they are in turns of their own personal life.

different people live different life style.u can't simply force someone to experience things that they have yet to experience. calling someone immature? why don't u think about it yourself before calling me that?

if u want me to say, normally i won't blow my temper. or even show it. i will keep it in myself till i vent it out, either by blogging or talking to my family members.

right now, i'm mad. the more i think about it, the madder i am.

simply have enough of it.

just chatted with god-brother. things that we have chatted, is setting me off to think about 'it' again.

made a promise to myself not to think about it, somehow once it started, everything came rushing back.

it is like a bad dream. only bad dream won't repeat itself or continue after once waken up.

i don't want to be part of the reason for the relationship. i don't like to be involved. now i AM involved.

only hope is, he won't ask her anything about the friendship anymore, and any of the things that we have just chatted.

seeing doctor soon

2009-08-03T23:00:00.000+08:00

guess i'm going to see one soon?

been coughing and having runnning nose the whole day.

shortage of staff today. busy busy.

learnt something from my mentor today. didn't realise it until today.

shall watch one or two videos before heading off to bed.

weekend nearly gone

2009-08-02T22:57:00.000+08:00

so..have been slacking at home today.again.

hahaha! simply love the slacking part!

anyway, no plans at all for today.

been watching videos for the whole day.

finally finished 'Ghost Friends'. i love this drama!

why can't it be longer?

back to work tmr. late shift this week. hope time flies!

getting sick

2009-08-01T19:33:00.003+08:00

once again.

why is it coming back? symptoms are same as the last time.

luckly, still have yet to finish my medicine for the last time i went to see the doctor.

went to JP for lunch with colleagues yesterday. jaslyn and cheryl.

right after work, went to JP again with jaslyn. went books shopping at Popular! bought many books as well as a bag. it was fun! never had the experience of doing it ^^ do it again next month?hahahah..

woke up today with a blocked nose as well as coughing. terrible.

in the end, cancelled my appointment for facial.

will be staying at home for the whole day. took a nap in the afternoon. it was really nice to sleep-in.

hopefully will be able to go for training tmr. have a friendly with the year 1 guys in the afternoon.

work

2009-07-30T22:47:00.000+08:00

today is my first time being so angry during work.

not with colleagues.

not sure what came over me. but luckly, it all happened after nap time.

know i shouldn't talk about it again since it is already over, however, on another hand, it will be better for me to vent it over here rather than keep thinking about it isn't it?

sometimes it helps, sometimes it doesn't.

will be working early shift tmr. when will i get my own personal key?

O.O

2009-07-29T20:45:00.000+08:00

ooo...finally! the buttons are back! for photo upload and etc.

knocked off on time today. come home straight. and realised, parents and 2nd sis are still not back yet. they went for 2nd sis's graduation ceremony.

have yet to taken my dinner. getting hungry..

very soon, will be taking studio photos with our graduation gown. am not looking forward to it for now. reason? no money.

just bought a book regarding early childhood field and care. its in singapore context! finally! feel that the price is expensive though.

recently been buying stickers. hahaha..i have no idea why.

lack of sleep

2009-07-28T20:16:00.000+08:00

not sure if its like the subject mentioned for today.

somehow my patience ran out for a short while while i was working.

even openly showed my unhappiness.

usually i will keep it to myself during work. at least, until i reach home.

anyway, since it is over, there's no need for me to think about it anymore. and of course, i did reflect on it.

just checked my schedule for this week. really not constant. luckly, i'm not working this coming sat. but am still doing facial.

shift on saturdays somehow settled and fixed. am working with a colleague of mine that i am not familiar with. am a little worried.

met up with sis and her boyfriend after work today. shift was early so knocked off early as well. sis actually came to my school and had a look at my class and my children. how i wish i can intro a few of my children to my sis. i wonder will she have the same view as me..

another weekend gone

2009-07-26T20:39:00.001+08:00

time for weekend is always gone so fast.

but, am happy that i've got to stay home on sat to rest. for the whole day.

today as usual, woke up early for training. ended at 12pm.

went to JP next. as mentioned, for facial.

bought a lot of things back home to eat right after.

feeling so full ^^

something is still wrong with blogspot. i can't find the buttons for uploading pictures, font size and etc.

busy busy

2009-07-25T18:04:00.000+08:00

finally blog is working for me.

not that it wasn't, just that there seems to be something wrong with the page when i tried to update. a few days already. i can still update though. have to bare with the page.

anyway, yesterday's work training went well. though we had picnic in the rain. it was just drizzling...

learnt a lot. experience was fun but tiring.

a lot of hands-on experiences. i love such experiences as i am more of a visual learner.

went back to the centre right after to meet dear jaslyn, serene and rosie.

next destination was k-box!

had lots of fun there ^^ only pity thing is rosie did not sing at all -_-

will be staying at home today. RC having a fun fair today. starting right now? so noisy...

floorball training tmr! facial next ^^

picnic

2009-07-23T22:55:00.002+08:00

going for a picnic tmr. work.

excited? not really.

not working tmr, but going for training for work.

will it be interesting? will find out tmr.

have to wake up early to prepare the food for the picnic. making hamburgar.

after training will be k.box.

medicine

2009-07-22T21:27:00.002+08:00

went to see doctor again.

was told to see one and get mc.

and now i have more medicine to take.

spend the day watching drama. currently am watching Jap drama 'Ghost Friends'.

have many more dramas in my mind that i am planning to watch. those are still airing though.

'Koishite Akuma'.

'Buzzer Beat'.

'Ninkyo Helper'.

above 3 for now. i hope they get subs faster!

MC

2009-07-21T21:11:00.002+08:00

will be on MC for 2 days.

principal told me to stay at home.

been catching up on the Jap drama 'Boss' for the whole day. finally i'm done with it ^^

i miss my children!!

disappointed once again

2009-07-20T19:08:00.000+08:00

knocked off on time today.

finally after such a long time.

lao shi was surprised.

english teacher shooed me to knock off.

hahahaha..am i supposed to be happy?

somehow the feeling is great.

i made a promise to myself not to think about it again.

but somehow, it isn't helping if the other party keep talking about it.

do i really have to cut myself away from reading your posts? frankly, i'm finding it hard to.

have u ever put yourself in my or our shoes?

honestly, i did. in your shoes.

disappointment once again.

weekend ending

2009-07-19T21:20:00.003+08:00

exhausted.

going to sleep soon.

1st floorball training today.

went well i guess. even for the friendly.

will be taking it as a practice.

need to get contacts soon. running out.

knees are killing me! the pain...

Hannah's 21st birthday party

2009-07-19T20:49:00.009+08:00

Hannah - The birthday girl ^^

Constance - one of the mc for the day

Khai - one of my closest classmates

Michelle - coursemate

Group picture ^.^

tired

2009-07-19T01:03:00.003+08:00

on bed currently using laptop.

just got home and took a shower.

watched Harry Potter today. with khai. left me hanging. good or bad? i'm not sure either. guess it was okay for me.

hannah's 21st birthday went well. all her dearest friends turned up ^^. am happy for her.

took some pictures during the party. lazy to upload. tmr maybe.

constance showed me the 'kpop crazy-ness' they had in class. hahaha..misses the old days spent in school.

1st floorball training tmr. have to wake up early.

signing off.

back to work

2009-07-16T22:51:00.002+08:00

back to work tmr.

feeling much more better after taking the medicine.

suddenly remembered there is homework. just finished. uncompleted though.

2nd sis has yet to come home. this is weird. normally she will be home late because of work.

mum unable to sleep because of her. now folding clothes. hahaha..what a way to pass time!

sincere apologies to constance and hannah for not turning up for their presentation.

this weekend is happening for me!

doctor

2009-07-15T21:57:00.002+08:00

finally have the time to see one.

told me i've got a mild cold.

hate the running and blocking nose feeling. dry cough too!!

guess today's pre-quality check went well for centre.

will not be going for work tmr.

one day MC!

Offically sick

2009-07-15T00:55:00.003+08:00

finally.

the symptoms have ended. and now it is the sickness itself.

flu. running nose.

coughing stage is building up.

definitely taking MC soon.

how about half day tmr?

shall sleep after this post.

rest well friends ^.^

final decision

2009-07-13T23:11:00.002+08:00

restart the friendship.

i suppose there will be no regret from me.

starting from the scratch. no more extra effort. no more pressure.

just decided to join back floorball. not school but consider outside team.

aishah just told me there might be a friendly on sunday. on the day which i had just decided to go for my 1st training.

oh my god!!

venting - upset

2009-07-12T21:44:00.003+08:00

ready to let go?

perhaps i am.

why didn't anyone tell me about it earlier? why am i always the last to know?

what am i suppose to do now? change now? now then change, will it help?

immature? grow up?

am i really? friends, please tell me.

here i thought, everything is over. but it is not. not until either of us make the final decision.

why is this friendship making me feeling so disturb every SINGLE time?

i am tired. i really am.

forgive me if i make a decision that no one likes. if there is regret, i will be the one who suffer. not anyone else.

just give me time to breathe and think. i miss my free-off-thinking of this friendship period.

time-off is what i need right now.

please.

finally

2009-07-12T08:52:00.002+08:00

finally met up with 'her'.

am happy that she finally told me how she felt all this while.

meeting didn't work for her. but it did for me.

not sure when will be the next time we'll be meeting. perhaps in a long time?

time to grow up?

feeling terrible

2009-07-07T22:32:00.001+08:00

not feeling well since sat.

overwork? maybe..

throat has been feeling weird. not the normal sore throat i usually get, i suppose.

sisters and i aren't feeling well. first time where all 4 of us fall sick at the same time.

been feeling tired and uncomfortable at work since monday.

mentor noticed it even though i did not tell her about the unwellness.

asked me to sleep for a while during children's nap time. i didn't though. that is not right.

think pretty soon i will take MC.

sharing video

2009-07-05T17:23:00.001+08:00

Ariel Lin 林依晨 - Fireflies (螢火蟲) MV feat. Super Junior Donghae and Siwon

credit: ilovekidoya @ youtube

bought dvds

2009-07-05T14:15:00.003+08:00

2 for today.

for some reason, i can't seem to upload the pictures.

anyway, the 2 dvds are 'The Spirit of the sword' and 'Zhong Ji San Guo'.

both are in mandarin. one for mum and another for myself.

3th month payment is here.

was feeling sick yesterday. sore throat as well as fever in the night.

woke up today with no fever and mild sore throat.

went JP to develop photos for one of my colleagues.

bought a present for 'her'. a present that i promised to give for her good result in a japanese exam that was months ago?

meeting her soon. to settle our problem.

i hope i will have the courage to talk to her like i chatted with god-brother and his friends last night.

venting

2009-07-01T21:52:00.004+08:00

why is there suddenly so many things in my mind now?

one regarding work. another regarding personal life.

why? why is both happening at the same time? well, though it isn't exactly both at the same time, but they are both in my mind right now.right this very minute.

great, now i am feeling stressful and pressurize.

don't wish to speak or chat to anyone at the moment. at least not till tmr.

frankly, i don't plan on settling our problem on that day that we are planning to meet. but someone told me it is my last chance. yes, i agreed that it is not good to drag, but u will need to see the right timing and environment right? also, to be honest, the feeling isn't there anymore. i have no idea why do i need to apologize, in fact, i am angry.

angry at, why am i the one that wants to sort things out? am i really in the wrong? can't i just say what i felt to others? don't i have the right to do it?

something bad is coming across my mind right now. should i voice it out here? is it even safe to do it?

safe? where is safe?

i am so lost right now.

miss

2009-06-30T22:04:00.003+08:00

one of my colleague received a last min notice/news right before she knock off.

a news that will cost me to miss her. miss her noisy-ness. her happy-go-lucky of looking at things.

last but not least, i will miss she and her husband's cooking ^^!

she will be working at JP from tmr onwards.

guess will be meeting her this friday to catch the movie 'Transformer' together. i wonder should i go? she will be going with her whole family.

hope she'll be able to cope with her new environment and children.

speaking of children, from tmr onwards till friday, will be the one in-charge of my class. their teacher-in-charge will be attending a course for 3 straight days.

in addition, there will be 3 new children coming.

i hope everything will go smoothly.

short entry

2009-06-29T21:41:00.003+08:00

here i am before starting on helping (to type) for my mentor for her PTC this coming sat.

sadly, i won't be involve (not sitting in), but i'll be there to help to take care of other children.

i miss my toddlers. hanging around, going for outdoor stroll as well as many other things.

sucessful

2009-06-28T17:37:00.004+08:00

baked shepherd pie as mentioned.

sisters helped except 1st sis. predicted.

1st time: before baking.

1st time: after baking for 20 mins.

2nd time: before baking.

2nd time: after baking for 25 mins.

waiting

2009-06-27T10:57:00.002+08:00

for rain to stop.

planning on going back to school for a while to copy down the things needed to prepare the shepherd pie..

next stop will be library.

lacking of books to read recently.

weekend starting

2009-06-26T20:14:00.002+08:00

back from work early.

exhausted.

might be going off to sleep right after this post.

going back to school to copy something tmr. for a while.

need to prepare something for next week's lesson.

baking. a cooking skill that i did not get to learn at all. reason? due to mum's laziness.

good thing is she will be teaching me how to bake something that is related to my lesson next week.

shepherd pie.

so noisy due to family members (parents and 2nd sis) using both television in my living room at the same time.

should i drink coffee?

sleeping soon

2009-06-24T22:59:00.002+08:00

will be working the 7.30am shift for tmr onwards.

that means i will have my time to help my mentor with her stuff. should i bring my laptop along?

anyway..i'm starting to hate my forget-ness.

it has to do with my personal life as well as work.

i just hope i will not create any trouble for principal because of it.

tired

2009-06-23T21:54:00.003+08:00

going to bed right after i finish last part of the drama.

chatted with god-brother. i hope he will solve the problem he is currently facing soon.

tmr will be working late shift. like monday. swopped with the english teacher that i am currently helping with because she has class in the evening.

don't really like the feeling. i prefer the constant shift.

belated update

2009-06-22T22:55:00.001+08:00

last saturday movie ^^

father's day

2009-06-21T22:01:00.009+08:00

another weekend is about to end. another week that is over so fast.

today is Father's Day. did not really celebrate. just that my 2nd sis paid for dinner.

had satays for dinner. its been a long time since i ate satays. i love the sauce ^^

as usual, not much plans for today as simply, it is a total rest day for me. have to rest enough for the new week.

went to watch 'Ghost of ex-girlfriend past' on sat. i hope i get the name of the movie right.

it was not as good as both Jaslyn and i thought it will be.

right after, went to a colleague's son's wake. i am not very sure on how to describe the feeling while i was there.

but frankly, i do feel her sorrow and lost. of losing a son as a mother. indeed as she herself mentioned, it will take quite some time for her to heal.

rest in peace. may her gain something unexpected soon.